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Wednesday, February 26, 2014 - [Week 1 of Uni ]

Well week one isn't over but it sorta is for me if you scroll to the post before this one, you'll see majority of my classes are on Monday and Tuesday anyway. Due to personal reasons, unable to attend today's lecture. But I've dilligently studied the slides for today already and thankfully know every thing already. :3

Somehow doing a year 1 module in year 3 :o .. well it wasn't a mistake it's 'cause I keep doing my mods in pairs, eg. Module 319 requires 220 to be completed so I pair them up like that and the next pair requires this year 1 mod I thought I could ignore completely. Guess not :x

Anywayz,
at the moment I have a unusually positive attitude towards uni and am very happy to go although I did feel very nauseous in my first lecture of the semester and had a bad stomach upset 4times on Monday -_______- ''' . Was very excited to attend Copywriting class yesterday. I don't even know why but the module sounds so interesting to me. [TBH I was initially thinking "what my mum thinks I do" and suing people who copied stuff XDDD]

Realized I have the same lecturer from the previous semester.

The last semester he introduced himself and said "I write horror films as a hobby" and I insta-hated him because fuck horror movies XD I never watch them. I feel kinda conflicted with myself. I know my path is like .. media which means people. I have to talk to people. I need to make people like me and know me. I need to "like" other people too. But D: people scare me.

I actually have a quite a few resolutions this year, which include dressing up more and looking better. I mean my wardrobe is ridiculous and I wear like at most a quarter of it regularly. I really need to make myself wear more variety. I've always lived by "comfort over beauty" but lately it feels like such a waste because dressing up is what a girl likes to do by default and I should learn to wear more outfits and get used to them.

Enough about uni for now,
Neil got the house a new washing machine yeeyyyyyy~

I guess majority of my readers live with parents and aren't very interested in such things. BUT I AM ! It's a Samsung 6.5Kg Top Loader. I must say it's very very pretty looking with it's minimal layout. It's the first time I've seen a window on a washing machine. Now why did we take so long to think of that? I literally stood infront of the machine to wait for it to top up the water and start washing to see how a machine works :P

Samsung ftw

Zac received his new arcade stick today. It was very .. entertaining.. the process in which he was choosing one online. And repeatedly checking the AusPost website and at midnight he goes

"It's coming today!!!!!!!!! ERRRMMAAHHGGHHHERRRDDDDD"

woke up at about 9.50am and he suddenly walked out the room and came back with a huge parcel. whut? how?

He said " AusPost website says 'delivered at 9.37am' "

that dedication.

So he's got the Razr Atrox, which in my opinion it's very ugly, the giant Razr symbol looks far to ostentatious for me.

However I like it that the device can be opened :D ain't that pretty :3

Once upon a time I was going to buy him one because of his endless amount of rage at his old one which of course he destroyed while I was gone D: I had wanted to so long to buy him a Hori (because I find it overly aesthetically pleasing and I secretly wanted it too and having it would motivate me to learn to play SF)

Look at that beastly thing.
Why would he pick that giant green mass instead of this?! D:

Unfortunately I can't write a review for this because I don't play but Zac's expression while mashing it tells me its orgasmic :3

Labels: atrox, copywriter, fighting edge, hori, qut, razr, samsung, top loader, uni

bits of me revealed at .. 10:03 AM.

Sunday, February 23, 2014 - [back to briz life :3]

yoohoooo~

happily slouching in Zac's soft king bed and blogging again yay ~ the joys of having a good bed @@" Nothing much has happened since I got back :x my days have been literally sleep sleep eat watch shows back to sleep again.

Had a pretty rough flight back to QLD because it was storming almost the entire way. I never get air-sick but wow for the first time I actually felt nauseous when I got up to pee and the plane was shaking violently. I know I know, I'm not supposed to get up, but I can't help it if the turbulence starts while I'm mid-pee right?

Was very glad that Zac's timing was better this time :P Instead of arriving a couple hours early and having to drive around the airport to avoid costly parking, he arrived 30minutes after touchdown (which was delayed anyway). Was very fortunate to have passed the customs without any security check because I was .. carrying food like sealed jars of sauces and some spices. The last time I declared carrying some milo powder I was delayed for sooooo long and had dogs sniffing my bags -_______- phew lucky me.

Also lucky I wasn't forced to check in the heavy luggage I carried on. Total allowance of 25kg and the Samsonite one was already 22kg. Changi didn't allow me to check in the 2nd bag which was about 9kg so my dad checked-in my original hand-carry of about 4kg (which contained the unicorn! wallet, ipad, diary, earphones *gassssppppp felt so empty on the plane*)

I lugged around the 9-10kg bag full of food products onto the plane while also carrying the insanely heavy macbook + harddisk + cables... was such a painfully slow walk because every 10steps I had to stop and huff huff huff and continue again.

SOOOOO... since then, probably the only exciting thing so far is that I've cooked a new dish today! Stir-fried fish fillets in Black Bean. (That's not my picture but it sure looked exactly like that :3)

was gonna cook one of my normal stuff but I decided against it because everything I cook has so much chilli in in and I have a sore throat now ): Ohwell, consumed too much chocolate the past week, had a rare craving for chocolate, probably eaten more chocolatey stuff this week than in my entire life!

Back to QUT tomorrow to begin my 3rd year ! Timetable's alright (: Friday pisses me off :p but that's about it. Thankfully tutorials begin next week and I still have some time to rest :x .. Never enough rest! Probably picking up a new skill this year and hopefully it can be arranged to fall Wed-Fri D:

bits of me revealed at .. 8:38 PM.

Wednesday, February 19, 2014 - [Being a coach!]

SUUUPPP.

Final day yo. Actually sorta day and a half because it's a night flight tomorrow. Anywayz, final skating class in couple hours so I'll write a little post about being a coach! First of all I'm definitely not the best coach around. I'm not flawless in techniques. I can teach it and spot mistakes but I'm really bad at executing certain moves.

When I started a couple years back I was horrid. I could only stand but Glenn just roped me in and said you'll learn on the job. Thanks Glenn :D ! But still I'm far inferior to other coaches probably because majority of them did put in time and effort to learn while they were young meanwhile I was off ballroom and street dancing.

Soooo.. I've learnt that I can't be a pushover and a nicey-nice coach to the students all the time. In fact I actually made a little girl cry yesterday HAH. Am quite proud of myself for that really XD

The job is usually a 8-10week course at a school so by the 3rd or 4th lesson you can remember all their faces and spot the "special" children. I personally enjoy teaching primary school kids more. Firstly they're not shy and they'll be very excited to learn. It's easy to give incentives to them like "10minutes of free-skating" means the world to them.

Meanwhile secondary school kids are like "Why do I have to do this?" and most of them are little vainpots who don't want to wear the gears and complain about how ridiculous they look at etc. Teenagers are also far more afraid to fall and sometimes refuse to stand up completely. They hold on to their friends and scream alot more. The 7-10 year olds are pretty brave and eager and just forcefully stand up and try to move in but using all sorts of wrong techniques :P

However, I would say its really hard to control primary schoolers. Sometimes I wonder if they can understand me, and they have short attention spans. You tell them to sit down and gather in rows. One special pupil will try to get up and roll away and the rest will follow. But secondary school students yell at each other "HEY COME BACK HERE" .

Of course the older students learn much faster (for those who are willing to learn) so it feels rewarding for me to see the results and it's obviously much more fun when they can keep up with the coaches. :3 But then the primary school kids are sooooo cute and chubby. D:

Okay I don't really feel like talking about skating anymore :x But I shall tell you how I made that student cry. First of all it was a tiny class of about 20 girls, aged 7-8, was a girls school.

Cheryl (let's call her that) was much tinier than her friends so she was given the shiny blue skates (there were only 2 of those, the rest were red, black and grey). Cheryl's best friend started crying first because she wanted the blue skates and she refused to budge. Cheryl laughed at her friend at left her sitting there. So while the 19girls were nicely geared up and ready only that one girl was still sulking in the corner.

I grabbed a pair of red skates and told her "It's alright, blue is a boys colour, wear the red pair, for pretty princesses like you" She was pretty good-looking without the tears. Also the shiny blue skates are actually slower models and the red black and grey ones were much more comfortable and would go faster. I found out later after she stopped crying that she was actually good at skating.

Meanwhile Cheryl after boasting for having the shiny blue ones left the class to sit down in the shade whining that her legs hurt. After 5 minutes I went to check on her and she was pouring water on the ground in little puddles and using twigs to spread the water puddles. I told her to stop and rejoin the class but shook her head vigorously and continued to pour more water out.

So I confiscated the bottle and told her very sternly that water isn't free and that her parents have paid alot of money for her to learn to skate. This is a school where you come to learn, you're not here to play with water.

That's when she curled into a ball and started crying. I said your entire class is learning and having fun while you sit here by yourself. I hope you'll decide to not be such a baby and join them.

I rolled away to keep her bottle far from her (where she'd have to get up and skate over to get it)

My plan backfired because she started rolling on the floor and her friends from across the court saw her and came over "Cheryl ! What's wrong!" something something.. then I saw 4 of them skate to retrieve their bottles and start pouring water puddles around her.

KIDS! -________-

That's when I stopped trying to deal with the difficult children. I just joined the group that was waiting to learn and spent the rest of the session with them. It's harsh but instead of letting the kid bully me and waste my time like 2years back I simply tell the school Phys Ed teacher:

"I will not teach those who don't want to learn, I'm not here to discipline your students, so you handle the stubborn ones and send them to me when they're ready". I guess it sounds really rude but I honestly did walk away from several groups of uncooperative students and their helpless looking teacher.

In one of the secondary schools, the teacher gave up too and decided to wear a pair of skates and join the class rather than persuade the lazy ones to get off the benches (shaded area) and into the sun.

Anywayz, happy to teach friends who want to learn basics of Inline Skating :D like standing, falling safely, heel-braking, picking up speed, parallel turns, transitions, T-braking and simple backward skating :3

Yay for final lesson, yay for manicure after, yay for mahjong after, then a nap maybe then yay for family dinner and yay for flight-time ~

Labels: coach, discipline, inline, primary, schools, secondary, skating, techniques

bits of me revealed at .. 11:37 AM.

Sunday, February 16, 2014 - [when we parted.]

Hi it's me again.

Once again I'm typing this in the middle of the night on my iPad, lying in bed but you don't need to know that :p I realize my posts have been pretty dull without pictures and just words words and my personal thoughts, but hey life isn't colourful every day anyway .

Can't sleep yet tonight, well I haven't tried very hard, just laid in bed for 10minutes and rolled over to start typing already hahhh.. Probs just abit excited because I'm heading back to aus soooon. Meeting my mom for the last time this trip tomorrow and some friends I know from brizzy are flying in tmr evening. Dads also leaving in the morning for 4days so I'll be pretty free haha ~

I don't know why I feel embarrassed now about what I'm about to type hahh *nervous laughter* its a personal thing and I want to record this down. Although it's sorta a jittery feeling and it's hard to pen down maybe in a few months I'd have forgotten the feeling already but it's so clear in my memory now .

The morning I left Brisbane. Oh what a morning. Couldn't sleep and forcefully stayed up wishing the time wouldn't come. The drive to the airport, wishing there would a jam making me miss my flight but it was the smoothest trip ever XD. Wishing the flight was cancelled when I got there. Nope.

I remember it so clearly now. Me guessing the luggage weight was 12kg and Zac guessed 11.4kg and it was 16. Him pouring out the coins from his pockets into his cap and taking out his phone and keys and a million other little metallic objects. Me struggling along taking out the laptop and iPad and hard disk cables .

Putting it all back together and grabbing some food. Zac forcing me to eat the chicken wrap which was my first time eating at Red Rooster :3 wasn't that great haha, tastes like BurgerKing here in SG. Then the solemn walk to the departure gates where we had to do this again.

The first time I left brisbane in July for a short trip he looked around so nervously and said "there's soooo many people" and I just laughed at his silly shyness. This time he also looked around but just grabbed me close anyway.

The goodbye kiss was really one of a kind.

It was so soft and lingering I could feel his reluctance and his guilt in it. At the same time I could feel him pouring all his love into it.

Guilt because we both didn't want me to go but I had to sort out my citizenship. We both knew why. But why ! Why must I go ! It's the holidays ! It's so unfair. It was a selfish thought, but I didn't mind. I would have stayed if I could. I knew I would cry so I pulled away and waved and tried to join the queue as fast I could.

I thought that's it. Won't see him for 7weeks.

I got through immigration swiftly and realized there's a big window to look back into the 'lounge area' . I didn't see him . And then the rain started. Ahahhh I feel so silly now . Thinking about it is making me tear a little but it's tears of happiness now because it's almost over. All this while I keep thinking it's me, it's me who's the "bigger person" in our relationships. It's me who takes care of him and I who want to make big decisions. But tonight, just lying here and thinking, I suddenly see what a big part he plays. He does it Very subtly (? Subtle-ly) but it's there. His little acts of concern and sometimes big acts ( like the ridiculous prank i pulled and I thought he's going to hit me for sure ) There's so much I couldn't have done alone.

I think I'm abit too happy and emotional to sleep now hah.. Just feeling a wave of blessedness (does that word even exist)

Once upon a time, when we had just begun, my life had taken a huge turn. I had a chain of bad events in a short few months until him. I laid beside him feeling giddy with happiness and said

"you're the best thing that's ever happened to me"

He didn't reply

After some stalking his chat logs tho, I found a pretty unsatisfactory answer XD I supposed he had been overwhelmed himself by his own chain of events and he's immediate thought was .... <s> I don't know if I'm allowed to disclose this </s> haha but it was such a bastard thing to say really XD. Imma tell you anyway,

"She said I'm the best thing that happened to her. At that moment, I suddenly felt like saying Im not looking for a relationship, just to see her reaction. I don't know why. I just wanted to say it. "

Of course he got his dose of slaps and pouts from me XD

You are the best thing that's happened to me.

Is that sad ?

Is it sad that I've lived a life not knowing what love is until I met you and your family. Maybe you don't feel it because they're always there. I feel it. And I am awfully jealous.

Is it sad that we have a terribly simple life together and I say it's the best I ever had?

Is it sad that I haven't told my parents about you and told them how happy I am? (Because I'm afraid they'll take it away)

I suppose you'll never know true happiness without sadness.

Labels: airport, goodbye, kiss, last days, leaving brisbane, returning, the best thing, zac

bits of me revealed at .. 1:07 AM.

Saturday, February 15, 2014 - [skating days.]

The past week has been quite tiring for me. I get up at about 8 each day with the sun pouring into my room and the workers drilling away beside me making the ground shake some times . Guess I, used to it now, I continue to lie in bed for a couple hours, sometimes I text or start surfing the web in bed.

I usually drag myself up by 10.30 and either grab a bite or I'm off to skating class. Most of the time, the classes are in the west, while I live at the northeast end of SG. So I begin my usual hour and a half journey to the school. I spend an average of 3.5 hours at each school. I arrive 30mins before lesson begins to unload the van and lay out the gear for the students. Lesson time comes and we gear up and start teaching for 2hours. And then it's time to pack everything again. Organize all the sweaty equip into baskets because students get tired and lazy and cbf packing after lesson and are all eager to leave.

Then my long journey home. And since the start of this week I've been helping weiyang to fold roses. For all the times he's been there and helped me and tolerated my shit and came to my aid even without asking, I do owe him a lot.

[[ Obviously the roses are for valentines day which is over, however he's delivering them to his special one on Sunday which explains why I have more time to complete them. Also just an observation, the number of v'day posts this year online seem to have shot up from last year. It's so silly really. Do you only love once a year, should you really do something extravagant for the sake of this day that you've allowed society to define as the day of love? Do you really love that someone, are you unwillingly spending for this day and trying to feel good about it? Not to be a sour grape, tho obviously I'd be happier back in aus, but I feel terribly well loved every day and the 14th somehow flew by for me without any difference . Zac sent an adorable text saying "honey I've washed the car ! Sparkly and ready to pick you up" I don't need anything more than that (': ]]

Back to my days, so I'm just sitting at home after lessons, usually it's between 6-8pm that I get back when I leave at 12 or so each day . I have dinner and start doing some origami, spend a couple hours reading all sorts of stuff online and it's bed time by 11pm .

I kinda lack energy to do anything else.

I have no more lessons until the 19th, so I'm not sure how I'm going to spend my last few days on this island. Got asked when I'm returning again by several people, some texted me saying "I didn't get to meet you" . Well I'm sorry if don't have time. For the majority of failed dates you only have yourself to blame for not taking the initiative to ask me. I always always respond to messages . And I don't take the whole day to respond. So brush up on your own time management and communication skills before whining about not having the chance to catch up.

Tummy is unwell today, I should really stop eating Sambal. It's the only thing I can pinpoint that's causing my frequent stomach upsets. Life is so cruel, making me suffer every time I eat something I really like. D:

Today's gonna be a chillax dayyyy~ just lying around until the family goes out later to Sentosa or somewhere, might go skate or maybe just cycle today. Today's kinda the last day I have with my family cause my brother just returned from HongKong and dad's going away tomorrow morning, and he's returning on Thursday morning and I'll be gone Thursday evening. When will I come back again .____________________________.

bits of me revealed at .. 1:48 PM.

Wednesday, February 12, 2014 - [just dreamin..]

Hoi hoi hoi !

I'm so excited, my countdown to my return to Brizzz is finally in single digit days! And I can see that the counter's border has shrunk from the original box XDD

Lazing in bed at the moment, will be going out sooooooon. Guess I haven't been very dedicated to my blog, but really I did almost nothing over the weekend but sleep. I went to Universal Studios on Monday with Izzy, which I might write about, but really it's a themepark, they're all the same right? :P

Today I'll be going to satisfy my final food craving - Katong Laksa ! located at Katong about 35minutes bus ride from home :3 yes I'm going there just for the food. Valentine's Day is round the corner! Also going to help a friend fold a bouquet of roses.

Oh lawdeh I took more than 2hours to learn to fold a Kawasaki Rose. Okay, my respect for guys who fold origami for their girls has shot way up because the amount of patience and dedication it takes !!

8 more days and 3 more days of coaching .. I think .. :D I probably write a nice long post about coaching on the final day haha it's been so fun and it's a funny job as well. I defs need to pen it down for the future me. Today I got woken up again by the ever-noisy construction site. Usually I can tune it out but they're drilling and hammering away today and the ground is vibrating ): Lazed around for a couple hours but nope no way I'm gonna fall back asleep.

Usually I don't leave my room until I have to go out but I realized the house is completely empty today! Which is odd because my brother only has school on Mondays and Thursdays and my helper should be around too but no... ronery me. At least I'm leaving soon :D I can sorta hear doors opening and the sound of cleaning, but it's probably just my imagination because I walked around the house quietly today just looking at the stuff I might miss and stuff that make this "space" we live in home. I just can't acknowledge this Surin Villa as a home because it was bought purely for profit and it's going to be sold about 3 years.

Been daydreaming alot, Australia-sick.

Dreaming of the things I want to say to Zac's family and imagining their reactions :3 dreaming of the new semester and how I'll be whining each day about going to uni and probably end up skipping lessons and then whining again at Zac for not forcing me to go for class. Dreaming of the new skills I intend to pick up. Really. My mind has been made up ! I'm going to learn to .. and ..

ehuehuehuehue.

Have definitely not been living life to the fullest the past couple years in Brizzy I need to catch-up !

bits of me revealed at .. 11:57 AM.

Sunday, February 09, 2014 - [yearning is a kind of sickness]

Just sharing a song I really like. I memorized in on my way home and I felt extremely emotional because I listened hard and understood the lyrics after 6 years of knowing this song . It's just a mega relatable song at this point in my life :3 .. the important people in my life know why~

思念是一种病

As you trudge off to the other side, I can see no end to my lonely road

In a lifetime how many times are you too late
in discovering you’ve already lost what’s most important to you
Gone before you know it, why is it only after making all these mistakes
that you're willing to believe that you are the one who was wrong

They say that’s just life, you have to try and learn from experience
Try to endure falling tears or but there's no hiding the feelings you're meant to have
I don't ask for the the world to stop turning,
I know there's no point in running away
It’s just that right now, especially in the long nights,

I’ll still think of things that are hard to forget

I think my yearning is a kind of sickness, that cannot be cured

["Yearning" is so inadequate in this translation. 思念 means to long for, to miss... it's nostalgia, remembering, thinking... all of that, rolled into one, is the "sickness" here]

As you trudge off to the other side, I can see no end to my lonely road
I often feel you breathing behind my ears,

but I’ve never felt the sighs of your deepest thoughts

Desperately searching for my happiness,

I forget that the people beside us need love and care
Excuses always increase the distance between us
Unwittingly, unknowingly, we’re always busy complaining and disobeying,
yet we’re unwilling to look back and consider
all the foolish things we’ve actually done

Perhaps it’s God testing me.
It’s just that this wound requires a bit of time to heal,
it’s just that I yearn for everything that has passed
those people and things are far from me

We'll eventually be gone one day

and be nothing but a memory

As you trudge off to the other side, I can see no end to my lonely road
I often I feel you breathing behind my ears,

but I’ve never felt the sighs of your deepest thoughts

Missing you is like a sickness

A special kind of sickness

For how long have you not said I love you,
for how long have you not embraced the people you love
When this world is no longer so appealing

only love can make things better

I believe, it’s still not too late,

ignore those constant disruptions
Put down your troubles, let nothing unhappy stand in your way
I’m just afraid you won’t speak, just afraid you won’t act
Don't let the regret continue, it’s still not too late

After tomorrow, the timer will be SINGLE DIGIT DAYS! ~

bits of me revealed at .. 10:00 AM.

Saturday, February 08, 2014 - [just a little bit unwell]

Here's yet another post written on the train. I've decided to add a little player, so maybe if you listen to it while you read you can feel my mood as I was typing this because this wass playing and it inspired the post.

Today's post is slightly depressing. Some of you who have me on Facebook know that I've recently decided to use my remaining time In SG to rejoin my former job as a skating coach. And yes I've been very excited and teaching is a fulfilling job and I do love this job despite having to yell at kids and try to control all the overly excited children and prevent them from rolling away. Some of them are stubborn, some are too afraid to stand, some think they're overly skilled and ignore instructions and refuse to learn our techniques

It's actually a very demanding job so don't think it's all fun and good money. It's well deserved money especially when I travel over an hour to the school and another long trip home carrying sweat soaked clothes and a bulky pair of skates every day .

Recently there's something that's bothering me a lot. Which is my declining health. I don't know what's causing it but I've had insane insomnia for many nights. I'm exhausted I can't open my eyes yet I can't fall asleep in bed. I clear my mind and stare at the ceiling from dusk to dawn. I literally lie on my side and listen to the sound of my fan, the sound of my brother locking his door at 1am or so to sleep, the sound of cars and buses slowly diminishing. Then I hear nothing for a long time, and the birds start chirping,the doors 2floors down open and my helper gets up to make breakfast for the family and I hear them get up and go to work and school and then I still.. Lie awake listening to the construction site beside my house roar to life. My eyes adjust to the darkness easily and the room slowly gets flooded with light and the world is awake.

Insomnia is not a fresh problem. It's come and gone many times in my life. Lately each day I carry water with me, which I never used to. But in the year I've had 3-4 instances of blacking out in public. It's frightening. Just walking and I start to get dizzy and within 20seconds I completely lose vision and lose balance and collapse.

Do you know how that feels.

The feeling of helplessness. I open my eyes and see nothing but white noise. I blink and flail my arms but I can't feel anything. If I manage to sit up I'll feel nauseous. I'm just disabled for a while until someone comes and picks me up.

On my first day of skating after about an hour in the sun, I felt it. The sudden dizziness and loss of balance, my vision goes blur, I immediately crouched down and removed my skates. I just just kneeling down staring at the ground hoping I don't black out then .

The kids are there .
They're staring at me .
I feel awful .
I feel helpless .
I want to cry.
The kids think I've fallen down and ask if I'm alright, I can't speak or I'll throw up. I just sit down and remove my skates and the other coach stares at me from afar and commands the children away from me.

My boss sees me in the corner removing my skates in the middle of a lesson and I can't even look up at him to explain. I feel so embarrassed and humiliated that I can't conduct my job properly.

Today I survived my lesson. I forewarned the other coaches I might faint and tell them to immediately take over the lesson if I suddenly stop moving. Although I complete the lesson smoothly, the feeling came to me again in the van. It might have been the squeeze to sit with racks of sweaty skates and trays of sweaty gears and that the two front passengers were smoking but I felt so sick and weak as soon as I got out. I could not stand up straight again and I immediately drank many gulps of water before moving again.

People worry about being punctual, being well-dressed for a job, worry about their higher-ups but I .. have a different kind of worry to surpass it all. Just worrying if I'll even be conscious and able to move. -______-

Really. The best gift in life is good health. Those with health problems surely can understand me and how scary it is and how great an inconvenience it is.

Labels: blacked out, controlling, health, insomnia, job, kids, skating, techniques, unwell

bits of me revealed at .. 10:11 PM.

Thursday, February 06, 2014 - [Science Centre ! ]

HI EVERYONE!

Okay let's ignore the unhappy stuff that happened, and let's focus on the happy. I've found closure and so I can now forgive the people who hurt me. And I also wrote like 4 extremely long draft posts in my blog for myself. Maybe I'll publish them some day because I actually always look back at my drafts.

I also created a new draft today called The Wedding Draft. Why? Because it's almost every girl's biggest dream and happiest planned day in their life. So of course I'm excited too ! So in my unhappy moments I've some how made myself happy. yay!

Okay went to the Science Centre on Tuesday! with Dengyin and Weiyang (: The science centre is actually pretty nice and it's $10 per entry for adults. We also paid $5 to enter the Laser Maze. I always liked the science centre as a kid except for the insect exhibits. lol. We were slightly disappointed because several of the older exhibits have been changed and some areas completely removed like the Movie Studio and the Playground area with the huge slide, giant bubble maker and the chick incubator area is gonnneeeeee ):

I'm in a box!

or not? :3

I like how dengyin was asking profusely WHERE'S THE FACE? WHERE? What am I supposed to see besides the ship????

What are you doing weiyang? I just.. I don't know ?

I broke my arm. How? XD

Catbit !

DY: ayeshaaaaa ! I'm too scared, it's so dark, climb into this hole with me D:

Shadowy art, very impressive, they're just little cut outs that form brilliant shadows!

So many interactive things to do in the Science centre like making your own Cloud rings. making a tornado and interactive videos and stations to conduct small experiments.

Dengyin and weiyang are making a Cloud Ring. there's like a smoke generator thingy inside and when you pump the black cushion down it puffs out smoookkkeee in a big Ring . Too fast for my shutter D:

Science says that if you insert an object like your hand it'll disrupt a Tornado. Yet... houses and trees are swept into hurricanes and it doesn't stop. This is a really thin one and putting your hand in will break the stream of air.

we are relatives with da dolphinzzxxx :3

We were at the human body section and there's this giant brain here. It lights up according to which parts of your brains generate feelings during

"New Love"

very surprising isn't it. Isn't new love like a big surge of emotions and constant thoughts about the other party and also great curiosity to learn more about each other.

Au contraire the brain actually gets more involved in long term love and almost the entire brain lighted up at "Maternal Love" (no idea where that photo went)

watched a video of a baby's development in a womb. my god it's so scary how fast it grows and it's movements. It looks like it's so easy for the baby to get tangled in the umbilical cord and kill itself. I can't imagine something like that growing inside me and giving birth AHHH so painful goodness D:

left a note :3 how do people draw on these things! the top right one looks like some distorted penis..

Black lab mice. They were hiding initially so I bent down to get a closer look and as my hair brushed Dengyin's leg she jumped up thinking the mice were on her XDD lololololol . white mice are so much cuter D:

$1 to sit on the electric chair. far too chicken to try D:

Just a 3-handed Einstein climbing up and down the rope between exhibition halls.

Managed to do some work out while I was there too :3

Don't know how this "Naught is Nothing" was projected because no matter how I swiped my hand across the surface the 0 stayed there and the projection never disappeared or got interrupted by my fingers D:

Proceeded to the Sound Room and I cannot understand how this circular piano works because the notes just keep going up and up and up and it doesn't seem to end.

Ear Illusion O_O

DY: WOOOOOO .

DY: hey it's so scary. what if I yell into it and suddenly a head comes rolling down.

lol wat?

There was this series of scents section where you had to smell blindly and vote for your favourite. EUW CITRUS.

Laser Maze time! :D

was hilarious watching dengyin and weiyang roll around. Dy's butt activated soo many lasers hahaha !

SOOO NINJA on my best try I only hit 2 lights! I did a big jump and phone bounced out and knocked the lasers TT

Om nom nom nom nom .. what's this hard thingy that melts in your mouth ?

Ding ding ding! It's Astronaut's Ice Cream! I guess because they can't have liquidy ice cream that will float around messily in their ship.

The science centre gift shop has a million little toys and gadgets and they sell some of the exhibit stuff too but I was far too afraid to venture in and buy anything because there's so many fake lizards and fake frogs in there I didn't want to embarrass myself. So .. telescope section. SAFE !

Labels: astronaut, brain, chair, cloud ring, electric, endless piano, hurricane, ice cream, illusions, laser, maze, science centre, shadows

bits of me revealed at .. 9:22 PM.