Monday, March 10, 2014 - [just taking the bus ..]
Had a sorta big milestone in my life last week (shhh secret)
Anyway, my bus ride is almost over, so I'll end if with a
chorus from a song I really like. It's for a special friend to luuuuuc
at the lyrics and listen (: it's been quite some time, don't be sad for
too long more, there's a lot to be happy about too ~
The song's called "煎熬" (Jian Ao) which means torment, excrutiating pain, torturous etc.
Also had a huge relief but at the same time a new burden created
Was
walking to the busway from uni and my iPad played the most amazing
songs for me. Making me feel completely guiltless for leaving class
15mins early so I would catch the bus at 7.10 rather than wait til 9.10
for the next one. I thought again about how fortunate I was and how it
feels alittle foreign to be taking the bus again.
(by the way writing this on the bus :3) I thought about taking the bus tomorrow and how I
have no clue what the city bound bus timings are at the stop near home
XD . Talked to dad alittle on my bus ride home and how I wish I could
tell him of my life here. My true life. Who I'm actually living with,
the life I've made for myself without his approval.
Although I feel guilty for hiding stuff from him, I
suppose he is better off just knowing I'm happy and not knowing how I
achieved if, I think dad isn't leading a terrific life and even tho I
try to please as much as I can there's so much I do to help another
achieve happiness.
The song's called "煎熬" (Jian Ao) which means torment, excrutiating pain, torturous etc.
心一跳 爱就开始煎熬
At every heart beat, I remember our love.
每一分 每一秒
Every minute every second was torment
火在烧 烧成灰有多
The fire inside me is burning,
How nice would it be if everything turned to ash
叫思念 不要吵
Tell my memories (the feeling of nostalgia) to be quiet
我相信我已经快要
I believe I'm almost ready
快要把你忘掉
Almost ready to forget you
跟寂寞 再和好
And make peace with loneliness
我相信我已经快要
I believe I. Almost ready
是真的我快要
This time I'm sure I'm ready
快要可以微笑 去面对
Ready to smile again, ready to face
下一个 拥抱
The next embrace.
Chinese songs are soooooo meaningful. Unlike English music it hasn't become shitty and full of swear words or repetitive words by stupid young kids :x
Labels: bus, commute, happiness, jian ao, pain, timing, torment, torture, uni
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7:36 PM.
Wednesday, February 26, 2014 - [Week 1 of Uni ]
Well week one isn't over but it sorta is for me if you scroll to the post before this one, you'll see majority of my classes are on Monday and Tuesday anyway. Due to personal reasons, unable to attend today's lecture. But I've dilligently studied the slides for today already and thankfully know every thing already. :3
Somehow doing a year 1 module in year 3 :o .. well it wasn't a mistake it's 'cause I keep doing my mods in pairs, eg. Module 319 requires 220 to be completed so I pair them up like that and the next pair requires this year 1 mod I thought I could ignore completely. Guess not :x
Anywayz,
at the moment I have a unusually positive attitude towards uni and am very happy to go although I did feel very nauseous in my first lecture of the semester and had a bad stomach upset 4times on Monday -_______- ''' . Was very excited to attend Copywriting class yesterday. I don't even know why but the module sounds so interesting to me. [TBH I was initially thinking "what my mum thinks I do" and suing people who copied stuff XDDD]
Realized I have the same lecturer from the previous semester.
The last semester he introduced himself and said "I write horror films as a hobby" and I insta-hated him because fuck horror movies XD I never watch them. I feel kinda conflicted with myself. I know my path is like .. media which means people. I have to talk to people. I need to make people like me and know me. I need to "like" other people too. But D: people scare me.
I actually have a quite a few resolutions this year, which include dressing up more and looking better. I mean my wardrobe is ridiculous and I wear like at most a quarter of it regularly. I really need to make myself wear more variety. I've always lived by "comfort over beauty" but lately it feels like such a waste because dressing up is what a girl likes to do by default and I should learn to wear more outfits and get used to them.
Enough about uni for now,
Neil got the house a new washing machine yeeyyyyyy~
Once upon a time I was going to buy him one because of his endless amount of rage at his old one which of course he destroyed while I was gone D: I had wanted to so long to buy him a Hori (because I find it overly aesthetically pleasing and I secretly wanted it too and having it would motivate me to learn to play SF)
Look at that beastly thing.
Why would he pick that giant green mass instead of this?! D:
Unfortunately I can't write a review for this because I don't play but Zac's expression while mashing it tells me its orgasmic :3
Somehow doing a year 1 module in year 3 :o .. well it wasn't a mistake it's 'cause I keep doing my mods in pairs, eg. Module 319 requires 220 to be completed so I pair them up like that and the next pair requires this year 1 mod I thought I could ignore completely. Guess not :x
Anywayz,
at the moment I have a unusually positive attitude towards uni and am very happy to go although I did feel very nauseous in my first lecture of the semester and had a bad stomach upset 4times on Monday -_______- ''' . Was very excited to attend Copywriting class yesterday. I don't even know why but the module sounds so interesting to me. [TBH I was initially thinking "what my mum thinks I do" and suing people who copied stuff XDDD]
Realized I have the same lecturer from the previous semester.
The last semester he introduced himself and said "I write horror films as a hobby" and I insta-hated him because fuck horror movies XD I never watch them. I feel kinda conflicted with myself. I know my path is like .. media which means people. I have to talk to people. I need to make people like me and know me. I need to "like" other people too. But D: people scare me.
I actually have a quite a few resolutions this year, which include dressing up more and looking better. I mean my wardrobe is ridiculous and I wear like at most a quarter of it regularly. I really need to make myself wear more variety. I've always lived by "comfort over beauty" but lately it feels like such a waste because dressing up is what a girl likes to do by default and I should learn to wear more outfits and get used to them.
Enough about uni for now,
Neil got the house a new washing machine yeeyyyyyy~
I guess majority of my readers live with parents and aren't very interested in such things. BUT I AM ! It's a Samsung 6.5Kg Top Loader. I must say it's very very pretty looking with it's minimal layout. It's the first time I've seen a window on a washing machine. Now why did we take so long to think of that? I literally stood infront of the machine to wait for it to top up the water and start washing to see how a machine works :P
Samsung ftw
Zac received his new arcade stick today. It was very .. entertaining.. the process in which he was choosing one online. And repeatedly checking the AusPost website and at midnight he goes
"It's coming today!!!!!!!!! ERRRMMAAHHGGHHHERRRDDDDD"
woke up at about 9.50am and he suddenly walked out the room and came back with a huge parcel. whut? how?
He said " AusPost website says 'delivered at 9.37am' "
..
that dedication.
So he's got the Razr Atrox, which in my opinion it's very ugly, the giant Razr symbol looks far to ostentatious for me.
However I like it that the device can be opened :D ain't that pretty :3
Look at that beastly thing.
Why would he pick that giant green mass instead of this?! D:
Unfortunately I can't write a review for this because I don't play but Zac's expression while mashing it tells me its orgasmic :3
Labels: atrox, copywriter, fighting edge, hori, qut, razr, samsung, top loader, uni
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