Monday, March 10, 2014 - [just taking the bus ..]
Had a sorta big milestone in my life last week (shhh secret)
Anyway, my bus ride is almost over, so I'll end if with a
chorus from a song I really like. It's for a special friend to luuuuuc
at the lyrics and listen (: it's been quite some time, don't be sad for
too long more, there's a lot to be happy about too ~
The song's called "煎熬" (Jian Ao) which means torment, excrutiating pain, torturous etc.
Also had a huge relief but at the same time a new burden created
Was
walking to the busway from uni and my iPad played the most amazing
songs for me. Making me feel completely guiltless for leaving class
15mins early so I would catch the bus at 7.10 rather than wait til 9.10
for the next one. I thought again about how fortunate I was and how it
feels alittle foreign to be taking the bus again.
(by the way writing this on the bus :3) I thought about taking the bus tomorrow and how I
have no clue what the city bound bus timings are at the stop near home
XD . Talked to dad alittle on my bus ride home and how I wish I could
tell him of my life here. My true life. Who I'm actually living with,
the life I've made for myself without his approval.
Although I feel guilty for hiding stuff from him, I
suppose he is better off just knowing I'm happy and not knowing how I
achieved if, I think dad isn't leading a terrific life and even tho I
try to please as much as I can there's so much I do to help another
achieve happiness.
The song's called "煎熬" (Jian Ao) which means torment, excrutiating pain, torturous etc.
心一跳 爱就开始煎熬
At every heart beat, I remember our love.
每一分 每一秒
Every minute every second was torment
火在烧 烧成灰有多
The fire inside me is burning,
How nice would it be if everything turned to ash
叫思念 不要吵
Tell my memories (the feeling of nostalgia) to be quiet
我相信我已经快要
I believe I'm almost ready
快要把你忘掉
Almost ready to forget you
跟寂寞 再和好
And make peace with loneliness
我相信我已经快要
I believe I. Almost ready
是真的我快要
This time I'm sure I'm ready
快要可以微笑 去面对
Ready to smile again, ready to face
下一个 拥抱
The next embrace.
Chinese songs are soooooo meaningful. Unlike English music it hasn't become shitty and full of swear words or repetitive words by stupid young kids :x
Labels: bus, commute, happiness, jian ao, pain, timing, torment, torture, uni
bits of me revealed at ..
7:36 PM.
