Sunday, March 23, 2014 - [Juno 7 years and now]
I was in 15 in 2007.
I watched Juno with
my best friend back then, Pamela. I was bored by it. All I remember is that I
disliked Jennifer Garners face and her expressions. Somehow I always see her
playing uptight, paranoid, unreasonable characters, and it annoys me. I guess I'm being unfair
to hate an actor because of their face and their expressions while they're actually trying really hard. Anyhow, I'm sure many people hate actors
for stupid shallow reasons like me.
I watched it again last night, as part of film homework. The movie suddenly meant a lot more to me and moved it.
Actually,
it's strange how easy it is for me to get emotional. I cry far more
easily than I ever did before. I cried watching the end of dragonballz
when Bulma and Chi Chi got to see their sons again. Wut. I felt very sad
for Pam too when Goku was leaving. I didn't even grow up with the show,
neither did I wait patiently for the next episodes release. I watched
the entire DBZ in about 2months, I didn't even require the frustration
of waiting for new seasons or the anticipation of watching it each
morning like other kids did to enjoy the show and appreciate it .
I feel like my younger self is exactly like Juno,
especially when she thinks that everyone old should be a automatically a
parent. I took a long time to understand this world and be aware of
things and think about what I want to do in life. And just like Jennifer in the show, all I really
wanted is to be a mom.
I've done stupid things in my life and perhaps I can
relate to Juno more than a typical girl my age. I feel scared after
watching this movie now. What if something happens and I can't have kids
some day. What if my husband leaves me at a critical time. What if I
don't ever get married. I've spent years of dreaming of being a mom and I
kid you not, planning what to say to them and planning the kind of life I
would give them. It's really my purpose of living - to give life.
Unfortunately I'm very .. Traditional and set in my
mind now that I definitely want to be a mom before 30 or latest at 30.
If some weird events happen that hinder my path to being a parent at 30,
I feel like I would lose all motivation to live. ._. Idk, very confused
and even alittle upset from watching Juno. Ugh.
But it's good. I didn't think it was nice in 2007. I definitely like it now, except for the soundtrack :/
Labels: dream, jennifer garner, juno, mom, parenting
bits of me revealed at ..
10:16 AM.
