Thursday, January 30, 2014 - [CNY shopping 2014]
So Lunar New Year, biggest event in SG (: it's traditional for the Chinese to buy new clothes and new things for the New Year, so since I'm part Chinese and my mother is a very proud one, I get to enjoy this tradition free of charge every year :p It's the year of the horse! My mother always tells me how the year of the horse is greatly auspicious and wants a grandchild in the year of the horse. Looks like I'm going to be busy in the year of 2025 or the beginning of 2026 ! XDD
On Sunday we had a whole day of mother-daughter bonding and shopping so let's start from top to bottom. Honestly I was feeling very .. "cin cai" which means.. "any how" which means I was not interested in anything. I had nothing I wanted to buy so I was there just for the sake of it. It's just one of the times in my life that I feel I have everything I need and the things I want are all sitting in my firefox's favourites list so I would have very much preferred receiving money and being able to buy those things online myself :pp
Nonetheless I did manage to pick up some nice and sorta kiddish stuff. BLEAH ! Growing up is no fun, I want to stay young ~
First up, the tops
Momma was very insistent on going to this particular store she always visited in Bugis, so I went and I picked out a Mickey Mouse top XDD . Oh yes, was far too bored and insomnia-stricken so BOKEHHH EVERYTHINGGGGG, but of course I have the original non-filtered pictures if someone wants them... for whatever reason ? .. Ok back to Mickey.
It's a pale yellow top and I did not realize until I got home that Mickey is handicapped! One hand and one leg ! D:
The last of the top series are my 3 Snoopy tees which are probs home-wear or maybe Zac will wear them haha :p Uniqlo makes me happy ~ Uniqlo you need a franchise in Brisbane ASAP.
Moving down the body to the pantttsss and pantssuuu, these two pairs of jeans are from Malacca too :3 Might as well just add it here since it's all part of CNY shopping. Uber comfy and very easy to match colours hurray. Now I proudly own 3 pairs of jeans. XD
Recently I've had an obsession with underwear I've literally favourited 20 000 pages of underwear online from all sorts of websites and I don't know whyyyyyyy I just feel so happy when I purchase new underwear. Just a phase mebbbee... how do I look ! Fit to be a VictoriaSecret model? XDXDXD these cute ones are from Topshop.
I wanted the one that said TROUBLE but my mom's like Noooo, why do you want to invite trouble? So lucky then :3 gosh my hair is so messy from behind and my butt looks a little fat ):
Because one can never have enough shorts and sleeping pants . I might wear these to go jogging or when I finally decide to go for some Yoga or Pilates class (: wheeeeee ~
Down to the feet, a pack of socks for both myself and Zac because he just steals mine when he can't find his and he has like 50 pairs of SINGLE socks ._.
I know I recently bought a HelloKitty wallet but I found another one today ! It's so tiny and cute ! I did not bloat it up with all my cards this time sorry HelloKitty looks like you have to retire even before I started using you . Random American flag tote bag I got impulsively :p
You must realized by now that I buy a lot of junk and here's the final item which was from Legoland (which I definitely will blog about when I acquire the pictures from my father) A bento box :D or a container for anything . They can actually stack like lego pieces and they come in a smaller rectangular box to keep .. medicine? or some small accessories and a larger storage kind of box for .. whatever stuff that needs to be stored.
It's CNY eve today (Thursday). Have you all completed your shopping? Ready for the Reunion Dinner, family visiting + non-stop eating steamboat and CNY goodies and collecting AngPows! :DD D I know I won't be busy because I won't be visiting my family members, haven't been since the divorce. But I will visit friendddssss and bring on the gambling WOOHOOOO ~ :P
On Sunday we had a whole day of mother-daughter bonding and shopping so let's start from top to bottom. Honestly I was feeling very .. "cin cai" which means.. "any how" which means I was not interested in anything. I had nothing I wanted to buy so I was there just for the sake of it. It's just one of the times in my life that I feel I have everything I need and the things I want are all sitting in my firefox's favourites list so I would have very much preferred receiving money and being able to buy those things online myself :pp
Nonetheless I did manage to pick up some nice and sorta kiddish stuff. BLEAH ! Growing up is no fun, I want to stay young ~
First up, the tops
Momma was very insistent on going to this particular store she always visited in Bugis, so I went and I picked out a Mickey Mouse top XDD . Oh yes, was far too bored and insomnia-stricken so BOKEHHH EVERYTHINGGGGG, but of course I have the original non-filtered pictures if someone wants them... for whatever reason ? .. Ok back to Mickey.
It's a pale yellow top and I did not realize until I got home that Mickey is handicapped! One hand and one leg ! D:
Oh well. It's still cute to me (: Pair it with some shortz and sneakers and a cap woooo~ Next one also from the same shop, a Black faux leather studded top. Now now, my dearest friends who have met my mother and have seen all the things my mother gives me, I think you'll all be just as surprised as I was that she had reserved this piece for me ! It's probably the prettiest thing she's ever given me and will ever pick out for me HAHAH
you have to pardon all the pictures in underwear because it was just so hot hot hot in my room D: The top is grey but has black sleeves and studs at the elbow area
I just wore that skirt with it because the skirt is new as well! But it's from Malacca the day I went out with my family .. which I will write about .. sooon :x Yay for striped skirts . I really do like this top (: yay mom!
The next one is for my dearest Zac (: A baseball tee, white with red-orangey sleeves because he just loves wearing this kinda shirts and my mother has taken a liking to Zac so don't be surprised if she starts buying you whole outfits! Also picked out the same design but grey base with red sleeves for my brother who after 3 days has yet to unfold it out of the shopping bag and cut off the tags ._______. Imma just steal it away if I see it lying there untouched on the 19th of Feb. *you have been warned!*
The last of the top series are my 3 Snoopy tees which are probs home-wear or maybe Zac will wear them haha :p Uniqlo makes me happy ~ Uniqlo you need a franchise in Brisbane ASAP.
Moving down the body to the pantttsss and pantssuuu, these two pairs of jeans are from Malacca too :3 Might as well just add it here since it's all part of CNY shopping. Uber comfy and very easy to match colours hurray. Now I proudly own 3 pairs of jeans. XD
Recently I've had an obsession with underwear I've literally favourited 20 000 pages of underwear online from all sorts of websites and I don't know whyyyyyyy I just feel so happy when I purchase new underwear. Just a phase mebbbee... how do I look ! Fit to be a VictoriaSecret model? XDXDXD these cute ones are from Topshop.
It's BuzzLightyear. I just had to.
NANANANANANA BATMAN ♥
I like batman (: and ironman (: because they're not born with powers they make their own power ~ Aren't they just the most inspirational characters everrrrr !! yes. yes they are.
I wanted the one that said TROUBLE but my mom's like Noooo, why do you want to invite trouble? So lucky then :3 gosh my hair is so messy from behind and my butt looks a little fat ):
Running pants! Sleeping pants! or .. just pants! I mean shorts!
Because one can never have enough shorts and sleeping pants . I might wear these to go jogging or when I finally decide to go for some Yoga or Pilates class (: wheeeeee ~
Down to the feet, a pack of socks for both myself and Zac because he just steals mine when he can't find his and he has like 50 pairs of SINGLE socks ._.
This here, is the best buy of the day IMO . The thing that I actually saw and wanted so badly. Sneaker wedges! It looks so funky too (: dancers love funk. I dance. and I do funkstyle like Locking therefore these sneakers = gold. My mother approved of them because she thinks I'm short and these will aid me in appearing taller :D [readers who don't know my mom can just ignore what she says. I'm 45kg and 160cm tall and she pinches me every time and says I'm fat I'm fat I'm soooo fat. So yea.]
We actually went through some trouble to get a hold of these sneakers travelling to different outlets and asking for stock . But the effort was all worth it ^-^ From Bershka if you want them but I highly doubt there's any leftttttt ~ ehuehuehuehue
I know I recently bought a HelloKitty wallet but I found another one today ! It's so tiny and cute ! I did not bloat it up with all my cards this time sorry HelloKitty looks like you have to retire even before I started using you . Random American flag tote bag I got impulsively :p
You must realized by now that I buy a lot of junk and here's the final item which was from Legoland (which I definitely will blog about when I acquire the pictures from my father) A bento box :D or a container for anything . They can actually stack like lego pieces and they come in a smaller rectangular box to keep .. medicine? or some small accessories and a larger storage kind of box for .. whatever stuff that needs to be stored.
It's CNY eve today (Thursday). Have you all completed your shopping? Ready for the Reunion Dinner, family visiting + non-stop eating steamboat and CNY goodies and collecting AngPows! :DD D I know I won't be busy because I won't be visiting my family members, haven't been since the divorce. But I will visit friendddssss and bring on the gambling WOOHOOOO ~ :P
Labels: bershka, chinese, horse, legoland, lunar, mickey mouse, new year, shopping, sneakers, studded, tops, topshop, tote bag, uniqlo, wedges
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12:24 AM.
Monday, September 17, 2012 - [the bar has been set.]
you know what love is? It's a very annoying and unavoidable thing in our lives. If you're a bachelor or a spinster I feel utterly sorry for you because you're missing out like the biggest thing in life. Today I do not want to talk about love, just something that I have been thinking about since 2008, and very recently been thinking about ALOT, my brother.
When we were both young, neither of us had a very happy childhood, but as we entered our teens our lives seemingly became better, no more screaming, abusing and restrictions. I've always looked up to him, and always wished to know what he was doing and would chase after him. Every time I saw him in school I would be so delighted and say "Hey! That's my brother!" When he studied I studied, when he played his computer games, I would watch and try to learn and try to play when he wasn't around.
My brother was always better than me at everything, so I tried to supersede him whenever I could. I thought I was better at studies, but that was only valid til PSLE, he must have had a paradigm shift towards education and scored 8 As in his O levels and 4 As in his A levels. Even now at SMU an almost perfect GPA.
I thought he never like the piano, but that was actually me, I detested playing the same exam pieces over and over again. I only practiced harder and tried harder and feigned interest in front of my mother to gain her favour, but I never did. In the end he passed his Grade 8 successfully while I crashed and burned because I couldn't force myself to do it anymore. 4marks to pass ... ._. even that I couldn't manage.
Right now, my brother is in Busan, Korea, having a student exchange, and my parents are immensely proud of him. From my many years of blogposts, you would know that we weren't on very good terms with our stepmother, but that has changed now. Since I left in February, the entire family has become a very tight unit. My brother, father and stepmother have bonded very much and when I returned in July, I really couldn't understand the change.
Now my stepmother updates me daily, on what she does and about my brother and his girlfriend, Irene. Boy, where do I start on Irene. I've always wished I could take up ballroom dance with some great guy but that never happened. Irene and my brother attend their weekly Capoeira classes together.
Irene is a muslim and comes from a respectable family and is well-educated too. Somehow I wonder why I wind up knowing people who are so far away from that standard. I don't mean to judge, I truly don't. I am happy knowing all the people from polytechnics and ITE colleges, but my parents will never accept that. I feel so afraid sometimes when I want to talk to my parents, I already know they will disapprove.
Sometimes I wonder if I should just force myself, just force myself to find a Muslim and force a relationship. I swear I haven't met muslim guys, because I come from a Chinese school and hell, I'm in freakin' Australia now, there definitely aren't any. Just australians, koreans, chinese, africans but strangely I don't meet muslim guys. Fine, I've met one here, but he drinks and smokes and whatever, so that doesn't count anymore!
My parents say they're proud of my brother for being able to work and pay off his own expenses, when I was in SG I was working too, nothing for me there. Happy that Irene is able to pay for her own further education in UK. Of course that's great, and that's also because she got to work in Singapore. Try getting a job here.
I remember, in 2008, Irene asked me one question "Do you feel stressed that you have to find a Muslim boyfriend?" and my answer was "YES. But I don't wish to conform". Because of her background, she is happily welcome into my home, my parents adore her and invited her parents over. My brother has also flown over to meet her family.
For me? I have to dodge and hide everything away, because in their condescending eyes, only people who are tertiary educated and muslim may be their acquaintance. Even my school friends are not allowed over.
Of course, I envy my brother and Irene alot, because they met in the most unlikely place ever - through a cyber game. And me, who tries to socialize and meet others (and my dad even asked my brother to try to be more like me) failed.. failed so badly to please my parents. This is excluding my blood mother who is the complete opposite, only Chinese allowed.
But you know what, despite all this, despite the happiness, the blessings, the seemingly smooth path (I know nothing is easy), I am going to be different. I insist. Til the day I'm forced to my knees, I will not conform. I was brought up in a home where education is key, yes I agree, and I am studying now, but sorry I can't be a lawyer or a doctor. I have gone way off the course of EM1 or special stream and gone to the creative industries.
I do not believe that a couple must be of the same religion or belief to be happy. I will prove it to the world, because I'm tired. So tired of this burden from young, and more stress now from my parents "Hey you know what Imran and Irene did this week?" "Hey your brother is in Phuket with his girlfriend now" "Hey, Irene is coming over for dinner this Saturday".
I love the girl, she's a doll, but seriously, if you guys don't respect me and what I feel, why should I bother. I too can do my own household chores, what's so amazing that my brother does it. I have Skype to use as well but I don't want to because the first words out of your mouth will already upset me. For now, I can let my parents be occupied and feel happy for my brother. I will quietly hide in a corner, until the day I can show them happiness in other forms.
I don't know if this affects anyone else, it probably does, in some other part of the world. I'm sure many people feel the pressure from older siblings or even younger ones and I know it sucks. I'm sure many people also struggle with the Science vs the Arts thing with their parents. I'm also pretty sure there's many families with racial problems. But do you have them all together?
When we were both young, neither of us had a very happy childhood, but as we entered our teens our lives seemingly became better, no more screaming, abusing and restrictions. I've always looked up to him, and always wished to know what he was doing and would chase after him. Every time I saw him in school I would be so delighted and say "Hey! That's my brother!" When he studied I studied, when he played his computer games, I would watch and try to learn and try to play when he wasn't around.
My brother was always better than me at everything, so I tried to supersede him whenever I could. I thought I was better at studies, but that was only valid til PSLE, he must have had a paradigm shift towards education and scored 8 As in his O levels and 4 As in his A levels. Even now at SMU an almost perfect GPA.
I thought he never like the piano, but that was actually me, I detested playing the same exam pieces over and over again. I only practiced harder and tried harder and feigned interest in front of my mother to gain her favour, but I never did. In the end he passed his Grade 8 successfully while I crashed and burned because I couldn't force myself to do it anymore. 4marks to pass ... ._. even that I couldn't manage.
Right now, my brother is in Busan, Korea, having a student exchange, and my parents are immensely proud of him. From my many years of blogposts, you would know that we weren't on very good terms with our stepmother, but that has changed now. Since I left in February, the entire family has become a very tight unit. My brother, father and stepmother have bonded very much and when I returned in July, I really couldn't understand the change.
Now my stepmother updates me daily, on what she does and about my brother and his girlfriend, Irene. Boy, where do I start on Irene. I've always wished I could take up ballroom dance with some great guy but that never happened. Irene and my brother attend their weekly Capoeira classes together.
Irene is a muslim and comes from a respectable family and is well-educated too. Somehow I wonder why I wind up knowing people who are so far away from that standard. I don't mean to judge, I truly don't. I am happy knowing all the people from polytechnics and ITE colleges, but my parents will never accept that. I feel so afraid sometimes when I want to talk to my parents, I already know they will disapprove.
Sometimes I wonder if I should just force myself, just force myself to find a Muslim and force a relationship. I swear I haven't met muslim guys, because I come from a Chinese school and hell, I'm in freakin' Australia now, there definitely aren't any. Just australians, koreans, chinese, africans but strangely I don't meet muslim guys. Fine, I've met one here, but he drinks and smokes and whatever, so that doesn't count anymore!
My parents say they're proud of my brother for being able to work and pay off his own expenses, when I was in SG I was working too, nothing for me there. Happy that Irene is able to pay for her own further education in UK. Of course that's great, and that's also because she got to work in Singapore. Try getting a job here.
I remember, in 2008, Irene asked me one question "Do you feel stressed that you have to find a Muslim boyfriend?" and my answer was "YES. But I don't wish to conform". Because of her background, she is happily welcome into my home, my parents adore her and invited her parents over. My brother has also flown over to meet her family.
For me? I have to dodge and hide everything away, because in their condescending eyes, only people who are tertiary educated and muslim may be their acquaintance. Even my school friends are not allowed over.
Of course, I envy my brother and Irene alot, because they met in the most unlikely place ever - through a cyber game. And me, who tries to socialize and meet others (and my dad even asked my brother to try to be more like me) failed.. failed so badly to please my parents. This is excluding my blood mother who is the complete opposite, only Chinese allowed.
But you know what, despite all this, despite the happiness, the blessings, the seemingly smooth path (I know nothing is easy), I am going to be different. I insist. Til the day I'm forced to my knees, I will not conform. I was brought up in a home where education is key, yes I agree, and I am studying now, but sorry I can't be a lawyer or a doctor. I have gone way off the course of EM1 or special stream and gone to the creative industries.
I do not believe that a couple must be of the same religion or belief to be happy. I will prove it to the world, because I'm tired. So tired of this burden from young, and more stress now from my parents "Hey you know what Imran and Irene did this week?" "Hey your brother is in Phuket with his girlfriend now" "Hey, Irene is coming over for dinner this Saturday".
I love the girl, she's a doll, but seriously, if you guys don't respect me and what I feel, why should I bother. I too can do my own household chores, what's so amazing that my brother does it. I have Skype to use as well but I don't want to because the first words out of your mouth will already upset me. For now, I can let my parents be occupied and feel happy for my brother. I will quietly hide in a corner, until the day I can show them happiness in other forms.
I don't know if this affects anyone else, it probably does, in some other part of the world. I'm sure many people feel the pressure from older siblings or even younger ones and I know it sucks. I'm sure many people also struggle with the Science vs the Arts thing with their parents. I'm also pretty sure there's many families with racial problems. But do you have them all together?
Labels: brother, chinese, forced love, money, muslim, parents, sibling pressure, tertiary education
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12:50 PM.
Wednesday, July 25, 2012 - [Racial tensions]
as much as it pains me.. just look at the both of my parents. the heck am I supposed to do?
and then... not good for my outlook?!
My parents war will not affect me, it will not change me. Ever. They can battle it out til the graves and I won't bother helping either side.
Labels: chinese, choose sides, disown, muslim, racial tension
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12:39 AM.
