Friday, October 24, 2014 - [his wedding date. ]
oh god. oh god.
I just got informed of my brother's wedding date.
oh god.
this is too much too fast for me.
my precious brother... the dorky guy who doesn't know how to take care of himself properly D:
brb panic attack.
I wasn't even aware he proposed !?
I just got informed of my brother's wedding date.
oh god.
this is too much too fast for me.
my precious brother... the dorky guy who doesn't know how to take care of himself properly D:
brb panic attack.
I wasn't even aware he proposed !?
Labels: brother, wedding date
bits of me revealed at ..
12:44 PM.
Hello blog!
I finished my 3rd year of university yesterday woohoo ! :D I can rest now~ I told myself I would clean the house as soon as I finished my assignments and I did! folded 3 loads of laundry and packed the "wardrobe", swept the house, rinsed the bin, took out 3 bags of recyclables, one of the bags was leaking D: but zac mopped it up. yay for clean house!
Today is unicorn's birthday C:
she's only 19, so young...
ohwell can't turn back time, can only make do of what I have left.
Strange that two people related to unicorn were talking to me. Person A had wrote a gigantic post on her wall full of sweet stuff and memories, much awwwws when I read it. Hehe, that's good, sometimes though makes me feel like people, several people don't know how to appreciate good stuff.
My previous relationships were pretty one-sided in the form of gift-giving and surprises and doing sweet things. Because I thought all my life that nobody wants me, because I'm a freak with weird parents and I don't speak like them(the people around me), and I don't look like them. So whenever someone displayed interest in me, I poured my whole heart out and did all kinds of things for them. I upset my parents greatly but I didn't care. I spent frivolously and didn't think twice. I lied to everyone and I neglected many people just to please the boys.
._.
I got little or nothing in return but hard lessons learnt. It destroyed my outgoing personality (along with other shit that happened) and it made me who I am now.... cautious and suspicious.
Person B was sort of out of the blue, I saw person b recently and was pleasantly surprised at how much he's changed :3 Good for you ! Person b was talking to me about how unfair the world is when some people get uber rich parents and have easy lives.
Tell me about it. Because of the house I live in, people think I'm super well off, when I'm not. My parents do fine, but they also have struggles. I'm not given wads of cash by them. I'm restricted just like everyone else. Since I was about 16 I've been denied so many things and they insist "go and work and earn your own money"
Please stop thinking im loaded and spoilt. I face the same struggle as the majority of people.
Such a depressing post, anyway back to end of uni, I'm starting to see very repetitive assignments and lecture content in my 2nd-3rd year so .. I guess this is what the real world will be for me after next year. My goals in life have changed a little since I first came to Brisbane. I'm glad I know what I want to do :D although it seems incredibly hard to achieve.
I'm quite curious about how life works, some people succeed, most don't. They always say follow your dreams, do what you love then you'll never have to work a day in your life. Do those people know how hard it is to do that?
I love writing. So I'll write. But what if no one likes it, no one pays for my work, people steal it and pirate it ? How will I make a living out of doing what I love. Instead I'll start to hate it and try to find something else. But oh no, I'm knee deep in debts, need to pay the mortgage, pay for the children's school fees, pay for car maintenance...
Damn maybe I should have taken some boring 9-5 job sitting infront of a computer all day dreaming of a better career, but actually being able to support myself.
Everything that happens. It's all about money.
I finished my 3rd year of university yesterday woohoo ! :D I can rest now~ I told myself I would clean the house as soon as I finished my assignments and I did! folded 3 loads of laundry and packed the "wardrobe", swept the house, rinsed the bin, took out 3 bags of recyclables, one of the bags was leaking D: but zac mopped it up. yay for clean house!
Today is unicorn's birthday C:
she's only 19, so young...
ohwell can't turn back time, can only make do of what I have left.
Strange that two people related to unicorn were talking to me. Person A had wrote a gigantic post on her wall full of sweet stuff and memories, much awwwws when I read it. Hehe, that's good, sometimes though makes me feel like people, several people don't know how to appreciate good stuff.
My previous relationships were pretty one-sided in the form of gift-giving and surprises and doing sweet things. Because I thought all my life that nobody wants me, because I'm a freak with weird parents and I don't speak like them(the people around me), and I don't look like them. So whenever someone displayed interest in me, I poured my whole heart out and did all kinds of things for them. I upset my parents greatly but I didn't care. I spent frivolously and didn't think twice. I lied to everyone and I neglected many people just to please the boys.
._.
I got little or nothing in return but hard lessons learnt. It destroyed my outgoing personality (along with other shit that happened) and it made me who I am now.... cautious and suspicious.
Person B was sort of out of the blue, I saw person b recently and was pleasantly surprised at how much he's changed :3 Good for you ! Person b was talking to me about how unfair the world is when some people get uber rich parents and have easy lives.
Tell me about it. Because of the house I live in, people think I'm super well off, when I'm not. My parents do fine, but they also have struggles. I'm not given wads of cash by them. I'm restricted just like everyone else. Since I was about 16 I've been denied so many things and they insist "go and work and earn your own money"
Please stop thinking im loaded and spoilt. I face the same struggle as the majority of people.
Such a depressing post, anyway back to end of uni, I'm starting to see very repetitive assignments and lecture content in my 2nd-3rd year so .. I guess this is what the real world will be for me after next year. My goals in life have changed a little since I first came to Brisbane. I'm glad I know what I want to do :D although it seems incredibly hard to achieve.
I'm quite curious about how life works, some people succeed, most don't. They always say follow your dreams, do what you love then you'll never have to work a day in your life. Do those people know how hard it is to do that?
I love writing. So I'll write. But what if no one likes it, no one pays for my work, people steal it and pirate it ? How will I make a living out of doing what I love. Instead I'll start to hate it and try to find something else. But oh no, I'm knee deep in debts, need to pay the mortgage, pay for the children's school fees, pay for car maintenance...
Damn maybe I should have taken some boring 9-5 job sitting infront of a computer all day dreaming of a better career, but actually being able to support myself.
Everything that happens. It's all about money.
bits of me revealed at ..
12:35 PM.
Tuesday, October 21, 2014 - []
God I've been so lazy in terms of blogging ):
I get random thoughts about writing something but I'm always never at my laptop so I don't write it down, but now I am, though I am working on a tough assignment which is due in two days .. and I have a second assignment, thankfully with a very responsive and communicative (is that a word?) group also due in two days. yikes.
I'm quite.. displeased with this assignment because it's a very tedious one, it's about marketing research and we've gone out and done 4-page surveys with .. probably 15-20 questions per page. The data over 1000 responses was collated for us. And my report is all about, sifting through these 1000 and more responses to find the tiniest trends and the differences between male and female respondents, the opinions of baby boomers vs generation y, the opinions of those who have a smartphone vs those who don't and such.
It's not hard, it's just stupidly time-consuming takes me an hour just to find the appropriate data and churn out 100 words for a 2k word assignment.
Ignoring that, I feel like so much is going to happen suddenly, I'm going to attend Anna's medieval 21st party which is going to have.. 60 people or more? Wow.. I didn't even care about mine. I hate birthdays.
Then the next day, hopefully I can organize a photoshoot to get headshots done, because I really want them. The following week I have my 3rd pole performance night because going to SG and taking a 3month break from pole T_T . and also a Tupperware party the day after performance :3
Hopefully more Tupperware party bookings come in before I leave.
Then the new w.o.w expansion's gonna be released ~ which means I will most likely spend alot of time on that while in SG :x even though I won't even be there for that long.
Then it's the London trip and back to SG and the final year of uni!
Time's going by so quickly, there's so much I wanna do, but I can't do because .. no money ): and all I can do is dream about them. I feel sick of being a student most of the time because I feel so restricted by money. Especially since moving to my own place, the rent, the bills, the maintainence it's just overwhelming me.
I see alot of my friends, travelling every half a year, doing all sorts of crazy and amazing stuff and I just wonder how they'll cope when they have to move out of home. I guess in a way it's good that I already know what it's like .. sorta "the worse is over" cause I've just come to a foreign land and managed to sort almost every thing out myself after being spoilt at home.
Money really is the biggest pain in the ass.
Right, back to my dreaded assignment.
I get random thoughts about writing something but I'm always never at my laptop so I don't write it down, but now I am, though I am working on a tough assignment which is due in two days .. and I have a second assignment, thankfully with a very responsive and communicative (is that a word?) group also due in two days. yikes.
I'm quite.. displeased with this assignment because it's a very tedious one, it's about marketing research and we've gone out and done 4-page surveys with .. probably 15-20 questions per page. The data over 1000 responses was collated for us. And my report is all about, sifting through these 1000 and more responses to find the tiniest trends and the differences between male and female respondents, the opinions of baby boomers vs generation y, the opinions of those who have a smartphone vs those who don't and such.
It's not hard, it's just stupidly time-consuming takes me an hour just to find the appropriate data and churn out 100 words for a 2k word assignment.
Ignoring that, I feel like so much is going to happen suddenly, I'm going to attend Anna's medieval 21st party which is going to have.. 60 people or more? Wow.. I didn't even care about mine. I hate birthdays.
Then the next day, hopefully I can organize a photoshoot to get headshots done, because I really want them. The following week I have my 3rd pole performance night because going to SG and taking a 3month break from pole T_T . and also a Tupperware party the day after performance :3
Hopefully more Tupperware party bookings come in before I leave.
Then the new w.o.w expansion's gonna be released ~ which means I will most likely spend alot of time on that while in SG :x even though I won't even be there for that long.
Then it's the London trip and back to SG and the final year of uni!
Time's going by so quickly, there's so much I wanna do, but I can't do because .. no money ): and all I can do is dream about them. I feel sick of being a student most of the time because I feel so restricted by money. Especially since moving to my own place, the rent, the bills, the maintainence it's just overwhelming me.
I see alot of my friends, travelling every half a year, doing all sorts of crazy and amazing stuff and I just wonder how they'll cope when they have to move out of home. I guess in a way it's good that I already know what it's like .. sorta "the worse is over" cause I've just come to a foreign land and managed to sort almost every thing out myself after being spoilt at home.
Money really is the biggest pain in the ass.
Right, back to my dreaded assignment.
bits of me revealed at ..
10:30 AM.
