Tuesday, May 22, 2012 - [mugggg]
I feel very bad not updating .. I'm so lazy, everything just goes to my FB newsfeed. hehehehe okay but I still intend to write lengthy posts, after 14th June okay? right now mugging for exams D:
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8:12 PM.
Friday, May 11, 2012 - [crushed.]
you dont know how much you hurt me every time you say things like that. you ask me what makes me happy, what i want. So I wrote a post for you, to see my ambitions and things I want to do.
I thought you would help me you would support me. Instead you just think im being funny. you always try to push me away, you always think i will run away. When I just want to work hard with you, for our future. You dont understand me at all and you don't even seem to treasure me. Is it stupid to want to have dreams, is it stupid to idolize? Dont you have someone you wish you could meet? Just because you dont have the same dream as me
doesnt mean you can laugh at it.
I thought you would help me you would support me. Instead you just think im being funny. you always try to push me away, you always think i will run away. When I just want to work hard with you, for our future. You dont understand me at all and you don't even seem to treasure me. Is it stupid to want to have dreams, is it stupid to idolize? Dont you have someone you wish you could meet? Just because you dont have the same dream as me
doesnt mean you can laugh at it.
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12:34 AM.
Thursday, May 10, 2012 - [Dreams.]
Feeling abit tired of my life now, so I'm going to write a few things I wish to with my life.
- produce a superhero film w Paramount Pictures & Steven Spielberg or work with Marvel for their upcoming Superhero flicks
- produce a Taiwan lovestory film
- produce a Funkstyle based dance movie w Jon. M. Chu
- be in production of LOTR productions. (if there are any more after Hobbit)
- write a $5m cheque to my mom and dad with the money I earn
- meet Taeyang in person [: (ask him star in a film heehehee)
- Have twins [:
- Build my own house with a lovely swing, a pool, pool table, dance studio, mini theatre, DDR machine
- Ride in a hot air balloon
- Skydiving
- Swim with Dolphins
- Drive down Route 66
- Watch a concert at MSG (Madiso Square Garden)
- Visit the Playboy Mansion
- Visit Walt Disney Studios & Harry Potter Studios
- Play at Six Flags with all my RollerCoaster Kakis
- Legoland
- Harry Potter Themepark
- Pyramids in Egypt
- Scuba-diving at Great Barrier Reef
- Climb to the top of the Statue of Liberty
- Take photo at the HOLLYWOOD sign
- Skinny-Dipping at Maldives
- Watch bull-fighting in Spain
- Tomato Festival in Spain
- Stonehenge in England
- Watch sumo-wrestling live in Japan
- White-water Rafting
- Taj Mahal
- Watch a show at the Sydney Opera House
- Ride the Japan Bullet train
- Gamble at Macau
- Gondola in Venice (again)
- Eiffel Tower (again)
- Leaning tower of Pisa (again)
- Picnic in Hyde Park (again)
This list is non-exhuastive, the world is too great a place
- produce a superhero film w Paramount Pictures & Steven Spielberg or work with Marvel for their upcoming Superhero flicks
- produce a Taiwan lovestory film
- produce a Funkstyle based dance movie w Jon. M. Chu
- be in production of LOTR productions. (if there are any more after Hobbit)
- write a $5m cheque to my mom and dad with the money I earn
- meet Taeyang in person [: (ask him star in a film heehehee)
- Have twins [:
- Build my own house with a lovely swing, a pool, pool table, dance studio, mini theatre, DDR machine
- Ride in a hot air balloon
- Skydiving
- Swim with Dolphins
- Drive down Route 66
- Watch a concert at MSG (Madiso Square Garden)
- Visit the Playboy Mansion
- Visit Walt Disney Studios & Harry Potter Studios
- Play at Six Flags with all my RollerCoaster Kakis
- Legoland
- Harry Potter Themepark
- Pyramids in Egypt
- Scuba-diving at Great Barrier Reef
- Climb to the top of the Statue of Liberty
- Take photo at the HOLLYWOOD sign
- Skinny-Dipping at Maldives
- Watch bull-fighting in Spain
- Tomato Festival in Spain
- Stonehenge in England
- Watch sumo-wrestling live in Japan
- White-water Rafting
- Taj Mahal
- Watch a show at the Sydney Opera House
- Ride the Japan Bullet train
- Gamble at Macau
- Gondola in Venice (again)
- Eiffel Tower (again)
- Leaning tower of Pisa (again)
- Picnic in Hyde Park (again)
This list is non-exhuastive, the world is too great a place
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11:55 PM.
Taeyang is sooooooooooo sexy. *sighs*
Even if I was some professional dancer, I'd probaby keep laughing and squealing in his presence.. what a lucky lucky girl.
Even if I was some professional dancer, I'd probaby keep laughing and squealing in his presence.. what a lucky lucky girl.
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8:57 PM.
Wednesday, May 09, 2012 - [righting the wrong.]
Sorry to myself, because I have a lot of overdue posts, that maybe I will update after completing my big chunk of assignments, but by then exams will be upon me.. urghh.. why did I even stop writing. But at least I've written drafts.
I have painted a very bad picture of myself to Chris's parents.
Incident 1: barely 2weeks before flying to Brisbane, getting pregnant and aborting the child, knowing that they value children even more than adults. This comes from the "if you can only save your child or wife question" Chris was reprimanded for choosing his wife. I don't know if they know what I did, at least my dad knows and he ... was like a volcano. But mad for obviously different reasons
Incident 2: Scandal with Jun. I wouldn't call it a scandal, but in the eyes of everyone it is. Because in my boredom and childishness went to play with fire. Thinking it was a joke, agreed to have rebound sex with Jun if I decided to break up with Chris. I didn't think it was a serious issue, but it hurt everyone. As such I have decided to steer clear of all men now. I dare not joke about things and I definitely draw a line between me and them. Though I swear to god I've only done as much as to hug him, but they believe I did sleep with him and cheat on Chris.
Incident 3: It's Chris's birthday, a critical one, the year of the dragon, and to help him not be late for work ever again, I sent that sonic boom alarm clock. I totally didn't cross my mind that I couldn't send a clock. So they have a third reason to be furious with me.
well played aye.
I don't know what to do.. I kinda don't want to go home, because I literally don't want to go home, I wanna stay in a hotel. Because going home means my dad will clamp down on me again. And with the given circumstances.. I don't know how to face his parents too.
But that's just me. I will run and run until I'm cornered. I don't like conflict, I will suck things up rather than create a scene.
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4:04 PM.
Friday, May 04, 2012 - []
why the hell did blogger change interface?! It's so hard to use now ? ):
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5:18 PM.
