Monday, July 22, 2013 - [HongKong 2013]
... my post decided to delete itself somehow... I can't be bothered to rearrange everything again ... here's the rough post and some messily slotted pictures -_________- "" (there were hundreds in the post.. now just ... 50 maybe .. )
1. Free day
So got up super early and zeeeek was on skype w me and 4.30am (SG time) to watch me prepare for HK hhaha so cute :3 silly boy .. I learnt that our tour to HK was not fully guided HURRAY, so we could just chill on our own for the first 2 days ~ :DDD
I rmb HK prettty well, was there just 2 years ago, and our hotel was awesome, Eaton Hotel. Clean and big and comfy and in a good spot~
Walked around Temple street, bought my posters ~ also went to Tsim Sha Tsui to watch the fireworks for HK’s return ot China anniversary but there weren’t any because no one wanted to sponsor the fireworks. aawww ._. When we reached Tsim Sha Tsui, we saw a mosque and mom was reminiscing about the past when she visited with dad and getting agitated abit, as usual.
Couldn’t sleep at night cause mom was snoring. (didn’t sleep any of the nights actually)
2. Free day
went out in the day to the ladies market at MongKok but it was scorching and we only walked for a couple hours and we coulnd’t take it. Had yoshinoya for lunch cause momma too scared to try street food.
Had a tummyache and couldn’t find a public restroom TT … everywhere we went was like “tenant use only” and we were out at about 11am and the malls open about 12pm or 12.30pm . which suuuckked, so we couldn’t do anything but go back before getting burnt alive.
I had a nap cause I was tired from the previous night and we went out again about 4pm and walked until 10pm? all around Mongkok, many streets cause it’s a big grid of shops we also went to the mall called Gala Place which we went into trying to search for a toilet. :3 all the shops in there are to die for U_U fell in love with a bag there and mom said I couldnt buy it yet cause its an inauspicious day.
fuuuuarrrkkk.
My mood was very low the whole day because Zac was not messaging me, and I took photos of the streets, the lights, the signs of HK, because I thought that they were very different from Aus and that’s what would interest him, because I wasn’t at any tourist spots. But I guessed he though I was spamming him alot ._. I felt sad because he didn’t understand I was walking for so long and trying my best to take everything I see, even though the photos are shitty and all ): Actually, he was asleeeeeeeeppppp until 4pm.
He also went to cilla’s place that evening to play halooo, for about 6hours and wasn’t replying and I felt very sad because I did talk to him before about me not being comfortable with him spending time with her alone. or at least not so long and not without telling me anything
And he stayed til 3 or 4am which is soooo late ._. of course I’m sure nothing would happen but still … I don’t like it.
And I was awake sadly the whole night thanks to mom ._.
when he finally replied and said “aww no goodnight kiss?” I got so angry and told him about why I’m unhappy but he didn’t take it the way I wanted him to and his response was like ._. .. really stabbing.
sighs... I guess I can’t say much to hom when I’m unhappy, because I know he reacts differently. ._. ahh !
MOVING ON~
3. Ocean Park
Woke up early, more like got out of bed early because I wasn’t sleeping and the guide cabbed us to Ocean Park :3 well I think it was a waste because we didn’t sit on any rides at all, but we did see all the animals.
First we went to the grand aquarium to see fishes eels stingrays jellyfish, the usual, seen it all before in various aquariums and I bought jellyfish Captain Pip :DD I guess I'm not very fascinated by fish anymore, I used to be, I seem to be going through a phase in life where I keep seeing animals all the time! :o
went to the Panda Observatory. nnggawwww He came out to chew on his bamboo and turnips XD SOOO KKYYOOOTEEEE chompchompchomp. we watched the panda walk roll and sit down and stretch ARGH SO CUTE! Had a terrible lunch at the panda cafe but I bought a toy Po XD
Took a scary cable car ride to “the Summit” where all the rides and other stuff were. (Can you see the seahorse on the mountain? Wonder how they did that.. and by the way cable cars freak zac out XDD) Went to the Arctic section to see penguins, artic foxes, seals and walruses. We watched the seals being fed. :DD so fat and sliideeeyyyyy . wish I could touch one.
mom wanted to go to the rainforest section but I said no, because I hate frogs and don’t wanna be near any of them
We saw the giant Chinese Sturgeon then we went to the Ocean Theatre to sit for an hour until the Dolphin show was on. Was a really good performance! Riding dolphins, jumps, dancing and twirling . and the Californian Sealion came out tooo :3 I got kissed by one before XDD at SG zoo
we went back after the showww, about 4pm, and went to shop around Mongkok again! Today was an auspicious day so mom let me go back and by my precious bag :DDD got poster for lachlan and legwarmers for cilla too
4. Macau
got up even earlier! ferry to Macau ~ mom was so worried that we were conned because the guide at Macau was late and we were waiting for 20mins thinking oh we’re stranded in Macau.
Actually I argued with mom before leaving, I’m like mom why do you comment on every single person and what they’re wearing and who they’re with and where you think they come from. I was just soooo cranky I suppose from lack of sleep but ohwell. She snapped back at me saying “Why don’t you want to listen to anything? Why can’t I talk about stuff? Then what’s the point of interaction if you don’t talk about this? Does this mean you don’t talk at all to people?” oh gawd.
I gave up and sat silently for an hour on the ferry. Fell asleep :o
Macau was bright and hot and had no shelter anywhere not much trees. We met our tourguide and she apologized a million times and held onto my hand for the rest of the day ._.
We went to fisherman’s wharf first where we saw some like Egyptian style buildings that were very out of place :o So Macau is a Portuguese city, only under the control of China from 1999, thus all the signs were in Portuguese.
Then we went to see the great Guan Yin statue, there’s always one everywhere and Buddha stuff wherever I go ._. mom insisted on a bajillion photos as usual
We went for luuunnccchh and idk why I’ve lost my appetite greatly and I barely ate throughout the trip and so I didn’t really eat though the food was nice~ went to the Macau Tower! we were so lucky to catch someone bungy-ing off the tower!
Then to Ruins of Saint Paul where my nightmare began.
mom just had to start talking about our life, because the guide asked where I’m from and how are we related, and mom said I was part Indian. Guides like "awww so pretty and so fair !!!" Mom starts saying I’m actually ugly and not up to her expectations.. etc etc and then it goes on about mom’s divorce and saying how my dad ill-treated her and how I rooted for my stepmom and helped to decorate the wedding car.
Everyone knows I avoid my stepmom all the time and I never did like her and when my dad asked me if I wanted a new mom I said no, immediately and I said no many times to him saying I don’t like the new mom.
But it’s alright, my mom doesn’t care, she just wants to think the worse of me.
Then we went to The Venetian, hotel/casino/mall with 600shops just on one level! It’s a maze~ It was so beautiful I was honestly enjoying the day until my mom went berserk suddenly.
She brought up the issue of my dads second divorce and I said it’s probably not happening and my mom immediately blames me because it didn’t go through. wtf? She thinks I’m an ungrateful daughter who didn’t ruin my dad’s second marriage enough and didnt support her and didn’t try to extract money from my dad to give to her. She just started screaming and I got angry and yelled back in the middle of this beautiful place “YES I TOTALLY HATE YOU AND MY LOYALTY IS WITH THEM”. It was so embarrassing I was really upset because over all the days she kept nagging and saying about how bad dad was and also mentioning my brother and his “incompetent” girlfriend .
yes she has tertiary education, is a senior graphics designer, but to you she’s short and non-chinese and likes to draw. Draw?! … I don’t even want to bother to explain how hard it is. She is just … 'so... useless ….....' I cannot stand parents like that. Why must you control a child so much. Is it really because you care too much or because you’re unhappy and you cannot stand others being happy.
She yelled at me for another 6hours in the hotel in the bus on the ferry. I turned on the TV at the hotel and she screamed "Don’t try to drown me out!" so I turned it off immediately and said “fine, keep talking until morning” .. In my heart I feel this great great dilemma. I really want to leave her and be happy on my own, but I cannot live knowing my parent is unhappy and unsatisfied. I genuinely care about three of them and before I tell them anything or ask anything I always think if it would make them sad. Like right now, I’m not going out late and I’m making efforts to talk to Haslinda each day so dad won’t be upset. (at this point in time the previous post hadn't happened yet)
But do they think that way? They just tell me to do this and that and try to be a better person but they don’t know my pain of pleasing both sides. They don’t know how hard I try and they assume it’s easy for me and that I’m just being stubborn or lazy. I want my own things in life and I really want their approval but I have made up my mind but even if they don’t approve I will not let them hold me back.
On this day I was so glad I had zac to talk to because I was soooooo troubled and I didn’t want to burden dy again with the same family issues. Anyway instead of offering comfort, zac, being zac just approached it a completely different way from dy and said I don’t ever have to see my mom again and I don’t have to please anyone and I can be happy with him
5. Lantau island
Final day in HK, after all that drama yesterday, was really relieved it was ending. Took the 6km cable car to Ngong Ping 360 (starts at that while weird building in the pic) and mom started again. Saying how she has always dreamed of coming here and my dad never took her and she says he did it on purpose because I have been to Lantau when I was younger and came w dad.
loool ._. too bad for you
That's the HK airport [:
The little town was … so hot. and empty... we went to the Big Buddha, just like every other buddha in taiwan, beijing, thailand, US, korea, japan. We had to climb 250 stairs and take many many pics of mom praying and tossing coins and etc.... same old ..
had an awful vegetarian lunch we barely ate at all (We - me mom, and 4 phillipinos, they’re really cool :D) and we took funny photos together in the town before heading back to Kowloon. ( HK is divided into two main islands, HK and Kowloon where we were staying and where we’ve been going around - shopping/ocean park)
So from 1pm onwards, me and mom walked until 8pm because we had no where to go and we already checked out. Genius of a mom changed our original 8pm flight to the latest one avail which was actually at 1.30am but told me was at 11pm ._.
Gosh... walked around nonstop to kill time and she was trying to buy stuff for my brother. And kept debating which shirt to buy walking back and forth and making me really annoyed. and then complaining to me how she regrets this and that and that and this . -_______- regrets not taking the City Night tour or going to Disneyland … (she went crazy in the Disneyland shop at the airport anyway, but didnt let me buy anything because SHE SAID STITCH IS UGLY)
Flight home was smoooth and quick. Died on my bed. So that’s HK 2013, though I’ve made a resolve not to travel w mom anymore, pretty sure I’ll b forced to somehow.
1. Free day
So got up super early and zeeeek was on skype w me and 4.30am (SG time) to watch me prepare for HK hhaha so cute :3 silly boy .. I learnt that our tour to HK was not fully guided HURRAY, so we could just chill on our own for the first 2 days ~ :DDD
I rmb HK prettty well, was there just 2 years ago, and our hotel was awesome, Eaton Hotel. Clean and big and comfy and in a good spot~
Walked around Temple street, bought my posters ~ also went to Tsim Sha Tsui to watch the fireworks for HK’s return ot China anniversary but there weren’t any because no one wanted to sponsor the fireworks. aawww ._. When we reached Tsim Sha Tsui, we saw a mosque and mom was reminiscing about the past when she visited with dad and getting agitated abit, as usual.
Couldn’t sleep at night cause mom was snoring. (didn’t sleep any of the nights actually)
2. Free day
went out in the day to the ladies market at MongKok but it was scorching and we only walked for a couple hours and we coulnd’t take it. Had yoshinoya for lunch cause momma too scared to try street food.
Had a tummyache and couldn’t find a public restroom TT … everywhere we went was like “tenant use only” and we were out at about 11am and the malls open about 12pm or 12.30pm . which suuuckked, so we couldn’t do anything but go back before getting burnt alive.
I had a nap cause I was tired from the previous night and we went out again about 4pm and walked until 10pm? all around Mongkok, many streets cause it’s a big grid of shops we also went to the mall called Gala Place which we went into trying to search for a toilet. :3 all the shops in there are to die for U_U fell in love with a bag there and mom said I couldnt buy it yet cause its an inauspicious day.
fuuuuarrrkkk.
My mood was very low the whole day because Zac was not messaging me, and I took photos of the streets, the lights, the signs of HK, because I thought that they were very different from Aus and that’s what would interest him, because I wasn’t at any tourist spots. But I guessed he though I was spamming him alot ._. I felt sad because he didn’t understand I was walking for so long and trying my best to take everything I see, even though the photos are shitty and all ): Actually, he was asleeeeeeeeppppp until 4pm.
He also went to cilla’s place that evening to play halooo, for about 6hours and wasn’t replying and I felt very sad because I did talk to him before about me not being comfortable with him spending time with her alone. or at least not so long and not without telling me anything
And he stayed til 3 or 4am which is soooo late ._. of course I’m sure nothing would happen but still … I don’t like it.
And I was awake sadly the whole night thanks to mom ._.
when he finally replied and said “aww no goodnight kiss?” I got so angry and told him about why I’m unhappy but he didn’t take it the way I wanted him to and his response was like ._. .. really stabbing.
sighs... I guess I can’t say much to hom when I’m unhappy, because I know he reacts differently. ._. ahh !
MOVING ON~
3. Ocean Park
Woke up early, more like got out of bed early because I wasn’t sleeping and the guide cabbed us to Ocean Park :3 well I think it was a waste because we didn’t sit on any rides at all, but we did see all the animals.
First we went to the grand aquarium to see fishes eels stingrays jellyfish, the usual, seen it all before in various aquariums and I bought jellyfish Captain Pip :DD I guess I'm not very fascinated by fish anymore, I used to be, I seem to be going through a phase in life where I keep seeing animals all the time! :o
Took a scary cable car ride to “the Summit” where all the rides and other stuff were. (Can you see the seahorse on the mountain? Wonder how they did that.. and by the way cable cars freak zac out XDD) Went to the Arctic section to see penguins, artic foxes, seals and walruses. We watched the seals being fed. :DD so fat and sliideeeyyyyy . wish I could touch one.
Artic Den
mom wanted to go to the rainforest section but I said no, because I hate frogs and don’t wanna be near any of them
We saw the giant Chinese Sturgeon then we went to the Ocean Theatre to sit for an hour until the Dolphin show was on. Was a really good performance! Riding dolphins, jumps, dancing and twirling . and the Californian Sealion came out tooo :3 I got kissed by one before XDD at SG zoo
we went back after the showww, about 4pm, and went to shop around Mongkok again! Today was an auspicious day so mom let me go back and by my precious bag :DDD got poster for lachlan and legwarmers for cilla too
4. Macau
got up even earlier! ferry to Macau ~ mom was so worried that we were conned because the guide at Macau was late and we were waiting for 20mins thinking oh we’re stranded in Macau.
Actually I argued with mom before leaving, I’m like mom why do you comment on every single person and what they’re wearing and who they’re with and where you think they come from. I was just soooo cranky I suppose from lack of sleep but ohwell. She snapped back at me saying “Why don’t you want to listen to anything? Why can’t I talk about stuff? Then what’s the point of interaction if you don’t talk about this? Does this mean you don’t talk at all to people?” oh gawd.
I gave up and sat silently for an hour on the ferry. Fell asleep :o
Macau was bright and hot and had no shelter anywhere not much trees. We met our tourguide and she apologized a million times and held onto my hand for the rest of the day ._.
We went to fisherman’s wharf first where we saw some like Egyptian style buildings that were very out of place :o So Macau is a Portuguese city, only under the control of China from 1999, thus all the signs were in Portuguese.
Then we went to see the great Guan Yin statue, there’s always one everywhere and Buddha stuff wherever I go ._. mom insisted on a bajillion photos as usual
We went for luuunnccchh and idk why I’ve lost my appetite greatly and I barely ate throughout the trip and so I didn’t really eat though the food was nice~ went to the Macau Tower! we were so lucky to catch someone bungy-ing off the tower!
Then to Ruins of Saint Paul where my nightmare began.
mom just had to start talking about our life, because the guide asked where I’m from and how are we related, and mom said I was part Indian. Guides like "awww so pretty and so fair !!!" Mom starts saying I’m actually ugly and not up to her expectations.. etc etc and then it goes on about mom’s divorce and saying how my dad ill-treated her and how I rooted for my stepmom and helped to decorate the wedding car.
Everyone knows I avoid my stepmom all the time and I never did like her and when my dad asked me if I wanted a new mom I said no, immediately and I said no many times to him saying I don’t like the new mom.
But it’s alright, my mom doesn’t care, she just wants to think the worse of me.
Then we went to The Venetian, hotel/casino/mall with 600shops just on one level! It’s a maze~ It was so beautiful I was honestly enjoying the day until my mom went berserk suddenly.
She brought up the issue of my dads second divorce and I said it’s probably not happening and my mom immediately blames me because it didn’t go through. wtf? She thinks I’m an ungrateful daughter who didn’t ruin my dad’s second marriage enough and didnt support her and didn’t try to extract money from my dad to give to her. She just started screaming and I got angry and yelled back in the middle of this beautiful place “YES I TOTALLY HATE YOU AND MY LOYALTY IS WITH THEM”. It was so embarrassing I was really upset because over all the days she kept nagging and saying about how bad dad was and also mentioning my brother and his “incompetent” girlfriend .
yes she has tertiary education, is a senior graphics designer, but to you she’s short and non-chinese and likes to draw. Draw?! … I don’t even want to bother to explain how hard it is. She is just … 'so... useless ….....' I cannot stand parents like that. Why must you control a child so much. Is it really because you care too much or because you’re unhappy and you cannot stand others being happy.
She yelled at me for another 6hours in the hotel in the bus on the ferry. I turned on the TV at the hotel and she screamed "Don’t try to drown me out!" so I turned it off immediately and said “fine, keep talking until morning” .. In my heart I feel this great great dilemma. I really want to leave her and be happy on my own, but I cannot live knowing my parent is unhappy and unsatisfied. I genuinely care about three of them and before I tell them anything or ask anything I always think if it would make them sad. Like right now, I’m not going out late and I’m making efforts to talk to Haslinda each day so dad won’t be upset. (at this point in time the previous post hadn't happened yet)
But do they think that way? They just tell me to do this and that and try to be a better person but they don’t know my pain of pleasing both sides. They don’t know how hard I try and they assume it’s easy for me and that I’m just being stubborn or lazy. I want my own things in life and I really want their approval but I have made up my mind but even if they don’t approve I will not let them hold me back.
On this day I was so glad I had zac to talk to because I was soooooo troubled and I didn’t want to burden dy again with the same family issues. Anyway instead of offering comfort, zac, being zac just approached it a completely different way from dy and said I don’t ever have to see my mom again and I don’t have to please anyone and I can be happy with him
5. Lantau island
Final day in HK, after all that drama yesterday, was really relieved it was ending. Took the 6km cable car to Ngong Ping 360 (starts at that while weird building in the pic) and mom started again. Saying how she has always dreamed of coming here and my dad never took her and she says he did it on purpose because I have been to Lantau when I was younger and came w dad.
loool ._. too bad for you
That's the HK airport [:
The little town was … so hot. and empty... we went to the Big Buddha, just like every other buddha in taiwan, beijing, thailand, US, korea, japan. We had to climb 250 stairs and take many many pics of mom praying and tossing coins and etc.... same old ..
had an awful vegetarian lunch we barely ate at all (We - me mom, and 4 phillipinos, they’re really cool :D) and we took funny photos together in the town before heading back to Kowloon. ( HK is divided into two main islands, HK and Kowloon where we were staying and where we’ve been going around - shopping/ocean park)
So from 1pm onwards, me and mom walked until 8pm because we had no where to go and we already checked out. Genius of a mom changed our original 8pm flight to the latest one avail which was actually at 1.30am but told me was at 11pm ._.
Gosh... walked around nonstop to kill time and she was trying to buy stuff for my brother. And kept debating which shirt to buy walking back and forth and making me really annoyed. and then complaining to me how she regrets this and that and that and this . -_______- regrets not taking the City Night tour or going to Disneyland … (she went crazy in the Disneyland shop at the airport anyway, but didnt let me buy anything because SHE SAID STITCH IS UGLY)
Flight home was smoooth and quick. Died on my bed. So that’s HK 2013, though I’ve made a resolve not to travel w mom anymore, pretty sure I’ll b forced to somehow.
Labels: big buddha, Hong Kong, ladies market, Lantau Island, Macau, macau tower, Ocean Park, panda, ruins of saint paul, tsim sha tsui, venetian
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1:56 PM.
